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Oh damn , i currently missing baby like so much laa . He's my temptation to everything ;
he's my - sweetheart/baby/boy/valentine/my everything as you can imagine
♥ i love youst so damn fuck much can , 27th's

On 290110 , meet baby at the topmen shop outside than saw nichelle sist together with chocolate . Than awhile more saw xiaozhu with shun , than together went bugis street walk walk . Baby help me carry my bag leys , so sweet laa him <3 Than went shisha with them untill 7 when nichelle and chocolate need to go off . Than xiaozhu & shun , me & baby went arcade play jubeat . Fun bodoh , awhile more 2 of xiaozhu friend come than went eat dinner . Than slack outside iluma untill 10 plus where i need to need to trained home .

On 300110 , morning father car us to tampines eat breakfast . Than went home bathed le car to parkway shopping , my hair was fucking ugly sial /. Than walk walk ntill 3 plus car to grandma's hse eat dinner than lastly to bishan junction 8 walk walk untill 10 plus . I whole day never contact dao baby can . I miss die him so so so much laa can .

Later going downtown maybe , currently " smsing " with baby on net . He angry me worh , angry me for making him worry . Haa , see how cute my baby was uh !! Alright , i hav to go lee . Playing games on facebook & i loves you baby !

• Went home bathed and do make-up
• Meet kilala at tamp mac outside , her makeup damn thick (!)
• Than went cs play jubeat , laughs
• Than slack aorund tampines mall , bio-ing peoples .
• Than went 77th street finding stud , a grp of bengs standing bside me
• Than slack untill 7 plus went hme .

I think this mainly all laa , feeling so sick and tired . Damn , stomach dontk why today feel like wired wired heh . Promise in the dark - listen , damn nice baby (!)

Can't count on you most of all when I really need it
It's the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I'm starting to see it
This can't work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I've given every breath I've got
Sometimes you just gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

Listen...

I just don't know what the problem is, what the deal is
Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn't see it?
All those promises are probably how you deal with it
I'm tired of hearing you say your innocent

Don't think I forgot
Because I really didn't care if you're lying a lot
I've given every breath I've got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

We all make mistakes
Sometimes we do desperate things
What does it prove? NOTHING
And you never do nothing wrong

Then what took you so long, took you so long
Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

So don't promise me
So don't promise me

Thinking those past memories that are honeyed , i love you still .

Yesterday damn fucking suay like one kind can . Everything not smooth for me laa -.-

1) Cant meet dao xiaozhu sist cause cant contact dao her /
2) Damn fucked up by alot of nonsence
3) Breakups (!)
4) Peoples called me but kap cause father dont allow me to talk .
5) fucking septum , keep hav blood clot .

Fuck laa , knnpcb . Venting all my anger now , sorry for scolding so much vulgarity . Ytd went home use handphone online with my sugardoll and diva friend . Than awhile diva call me , so chit chat with him untill 8.45 pm lo . Today wake up kena sinus , damn flu laa . Than keep " haa choo haa choo " , very fucked up ! Than ahwen called me at around 11 plus , than bathed . ` uploaded picture from my phone to the web . Talking with xiaozhu sist , xiaosnow (!) and other on msn . Haa , i shall end here babys .

Kiyomi , lurvs

Baby ask me post about him , must sweet sweet de somemore . Haa , bi nevermind if your hair kena cut de laa kays . You're the handsome one , dont worry what you say pei bu shang wo alright . Haa , sweet die maa / i love you much much much . ♥

• Feeling a sense of doubt , having too much problems in lifes . I not wrothy to love hate anyone but just wishes that someone out there will love me hard as i love him/her hard .
• baby , is just saying the word . " three word , i love you "
• 8 letters , three word , 1 meaning . Iloveyou
  

Baby ask me post about him , must sweet sweet de somemore . Haa , bi nevermind if your hair kena cut de laa kays . You're the handsome one , dont worry what you say pei bu shang wo alright . Haa , sweet die maa / i love you much much much . ♥

• Feeling a sense of doubt , having too much problems in lifes . I not wrothy to love hate anyone but just wishes that someone out there will love me hard as i love him/her hard .
• baby , is just saying the word . " three word , i love you "
• 8 letters , three word , 1 meaning . Iloveyou
  

Pierced septum , haa !

Haa , went whitesand with nichelle sist , hold her hand darm tide when piercing . The uncle do very fast so i dont feel so pain laa . Haa , $ 19 ! Than wait wait wait for marcus to come , so darm late laa he . Meet le trained to bugis play arcade than awhile trained to bedok meet baby and one boy . Than went slack slack slack loh , haa . Than baby and his friend take same bus as mee , than bi follow mee simei than trained to other places . Mee now at simei zuo boh can , LOL . That end , next time edit alright . Byes

Baby , dont hong zarboh uh . Me belong to you and you belong to me , dont ever break my heart like those before alright . Mee lurv you , (!) haha

Pierced septum , haa !

Haa , went whitesand with nichelle sist , hold her hand darm tide when piercing . The uncle do very fast so i dont feel so pain laa . Haa , $ 19 ! Than wait wait wait for marcus to come , so darm late laa he . Meet le trained to bugis play arcade than awhile trained to bedok meet baby and one boy . Than went slack slack slack loh , haa . Than baby and his friend take same bus as mee , than bi follow mee simei than trained to other places . Mee now at simei zuo boh can , LOL . That end , next time edit alright . Byes

Baby , dont hong zarboh uh . Me belong to you and you belong to me , dont ever break my heart like those before alright . Mee lurv you , (!) haha





Around five plus went pasir ris meet nichelle , xiaoKinki sist than called desmond whr he was . Than saw him , together went the piercing shop help sist look for her sept stud , than asked about the smiley and eyebrown piercin . Than after that bused to downtown , attending desmond's friend de chalet . Happy birthday btw , haa :) Pei sist go eat , than called baby if he want come th chalet . Headed back to the chalet , alot people was there went we returned . Awhile more baby sms my sist , say he reached le so we fetch him at the watson thr . Haa , than headed to the chalet back . Waited untill the time when cutting cake , total chaos laa . Cake was seen flying everywhr , flying cakes . (!) haaa , than went take beer and drink lo . Tio ps by one side , so poor thing (!) Haa , than went meet my daddy they all at burger king , than headed to the arcade play jubeat . So " pro " siah , score a and c leys , haa . Than headed back home around 12 plus , than called gan bibi , chatted with him from 12.30 to 1 plus . Haa , stupid nicholas g bibi laa . Sweet la him , stupid jokes ! Joker laa , (!) Sister upload the pic we took at the toilet ? Chio bodoh you ! Bought one super short de short , $ 15 nice bodoh , haa . That mainly all , -.-

Nichelle , lastlong long ok , must xinfu leys ! Haa (!) i love you .
xiaozhu ' , come back soon , i miss die you , (!)
You should know who i talking about ' , come out soon , dont keep hav daiji laa . Lurvs !
Baby , haa fun right yesterday ! Miss die you , first and last (!) Lurvs , <3

I darm hate liers , please laa . Knn , webcamming with desmond , he damn cute la can ! Haha , laughs , keep posting , acting cute ! Funny laa Alright that all , i will remember what u did to me , forevre ~!

Around five plus went pasir ris meet nichelle , xiaoKinki sist than called desmond whr he was . Than saw him , together went the piercing shop help sist look for her sept stud , than asked about the smiley and eyebrown piercin . Than after that bused to downtown , attending desmond's friend de chalet . Happy birthday btw , haa :) Pei sist go eat , than called baby if he want come th chalet . Headed back to the chalet , alot people was there went we returned . Awhile more baby sms my sist , say he reached le so we fetch him at the watson thr . Haa , than headed to the chalet back . Waited untill the time when cutting cake , total chaos laa . Cake was seen flying everywhr , flying cakes . (!) haaa , than went take beer and drink lo . Tio ps by one side , so poor thing (!) Haa , than went meet my daddy they all at burger king , than headed to the arcade play jubeat . So " pro " siah , score a and c leys , haa . Than headed back home around 12 plus , than called gan bibi , chatted with him from 12.30 to 1 plus . Haa , stupid nicholas g bibi laa . Sweet la him , stupid jokes ! Joker laa , (!) Sister upload the pic we took at the toilet ? Chio bodoh you ! Bought one super short de short , $ 15 nice bodoh , haa . That mainly all , -.-

Nichelle , lastlong long ok , must xinfu leys ! Haa (!) i love you .
xiaozhu ' , come back soon , i miss die you , (!)
You should know who i talking about ' , come out soon , dont keep hav daiji laa . Lurvs !
Baby , haa fun right yesterday ! Miss die you , first and last (!) Lurvs , <3

I darm hate liers , please laa . Knn , webcamming with desmond , he damn cute la can ! Haha , laughs , keep posting , acting cute ! Funny laa Alright that all , i will remember what u did to me , forevre ~!

She is in lurv with you , baby just you .

Today went schl , one word describe everything - suey laa . Haa , embarassing moment of my lifes , dont want to talk about it anymore , hpe tml will not be the same ok . Damn two stupid boy who say want to call me but in the end dua me , haa angry them ! LOL , in the end waitedwaited waited than sudden got people call me , thought is them two . Knn , my ahboon steady call me . Haa , so chat with him awhile lo . Haa , than went sleep .

• Chatting with desmond big gangsterr on msn , -.-
• Later see if time allow go fetch junzi frm my schl
• My make up eye liner getting shorter !
• Laugh , i love my gan bibi , he so disiao-er !
• Damn damn damn !

Haha , got people want meet me than dont want , haha . I wear black kind of " diao dai " shirt ! See lo , if he wuxim call me go find him than maybe will go laa , Alright update finish le , bye !

She is in lurv with you , baby just you .

Today went schl , one word describe everything - suey laa . Haa , embarassing moment of my lifes , dont want to talk about it anymore , hpe tml will not be the same ok . Damn two stupid boy who say want to call me but in the end dua me , haa angry them ! LOL , in the end waitedwaited waited than sudden got people call me , thought is them two . Knn , my ahboon steady call me . Haa , so chat with him awhile lo . Haa , than went sleep .

• Chatting with desmond big gangsterr on msn , -.-
• Later see if time allow go fetch junzi frm my schl
• My make up eye liner getting shorter !
• Laugh , i love my gan bibi , he so disiao-er !
• Damn damn damn !

Haha , got people want meet me than dont want , haha . I wear black kind of " diao dai " shirt ! See lo , if he wuxim call me go find him than maybe will go laa , Alright update finish le , bye !

• Sunday cannot meet xiaoMint sist , shag !
• Jioing bi out , if he can lo .
• Having the hme econ project thing to do .
• Bored dao liek fuck shyt laa .

Baby , i miss you like hell . Damnzxc !

Nichelle : haa haa , sister i also midd die you meet soon !

Cassandra : Sry baby-lover , haa lurvs !

Nataliee : Npe , you're pretty la ! Haa , npe me , link ?

Ahbaooo : Alright , thanks !

Miko : Alright , thanks !

• Sunday cannot meet xiaoMint sist , shag !
• Jioing bi out , if he can lo .
• Having the hme econ project thing to do .
• Bored dao liek fuck shyt laa .

Baby , i miss you like hell . Damnzxc !

Nichelle : haa haa , sister i also midd die you meet soon !

Cassandra : Sry baby-lover , haa lurvs !

Nataliee : Npe , you're pretty la ! Haa , npe me , link ?

Ahbaooo : Alright , thanks !

Miko : Alright , thanks !

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Damn school , today school really do sucks alot . Suck suck suck to the maxi core laa !
Hah , knn first tio caught for hair . I will tell you in details ,
Hair : Coloured , cannot spike , to messy /
Skirt : Too short , cannot above knee length .
Yah , that mainly and tio scolded for not respecting what she say . Lol , crazy women -.-

Whatever , talked to the vp and off i went back to my class . Lessons as usual for mee , schl bell go and off i went back home . Actually today junzi should be following me to cc but in the end her phone no batt and she hav to go home . Unwillingly , i went back home myself and use compt at home . Currently online , friday will be bored again i guess . 2nd day never sms bi already , dont what to do laa . Fuck -'- Whatever laa , btw thanks bibi for ur encouragement . Gans forever ok ? Below is me and my bibi chattings .

Ray : Bi , i very sad ! Enetrtain me with ur jokes leys .
Bi : what happen ?
Ray : Lol , just sad for no reason , maybe ?
Bi : Oh, haha :) dont sad ok , u will be 8 buttons away frm me .
Ray : 8 buttons ?
Bi : Number la bodoh
Ray : ( laughing ) chey , :x
Bi : cheer up !
Ray : thanks (:
& alot more laa , haa chatting with him was a joy . I lurv him , <3

Alright i end here , see later if he online than chat with him , bibi lurv ! 忠心 Gan forever

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Damn school , today school really do sucks alot . Suck suck suck to the maxi core laa !
Hah , knn first tio caught for hair . I will tell you in details ,
Hair : Coloured , cannot spike , to messy /
Skirt : Too short , cannot above knee length .
Yah , that mainly and tio scolded for not respecting what she say . Lol , crazy women -.-

Whatever , talked to the vp and off i went back to my class . Lessons as usual for mee , schl bell go and off i went back home . Actually today junzi should be following me to cc but in the end her phone no batt and she hav to go home . Unwillingly , i went back home myself and use compt at home . Currently online , friday will be bored again i guess . 2nd day never sms bi already , dont what to do laa . Fuck -'- Whatever laa , btw thanks bibi for ur encouragement . Gans forever ok ? Below is me and my bibi chattings .

Ray : Bi , i very sad ! Enetrtain me with ur jokes leys .
Bi : what happen ?
Ray : Lol , just sad for no reason , maybe ?
Bi : Oh, haha :) dont sad ok , u will be 8 buttons away frm me .
Ray : 8 buttons ?
Bi : Number la bodoh
Ray : ( laughing ) chey , :x
Bi : cheer up !
Ray : thanks (:
& alot more laa , haa chatting with him was a joy . I lurv him , <3

Alright i end here , see later if he online than chat with him , bibi lurv ! 忠心 Gan forever

Knn pcb , just now at my block downstair hav one fucking dog ! Black dog luh , anyhow come only , like i know him like this . -'- Come ask me whether can be his fake stead cause his brotehr dey all later coming the football court , go suck dick la . Haa , than he wait me at my block downstair than talk alot of craps make me dulan leys . Kena scolded by me awhile he zhao lo , so no use la . Haa , sot plug

Today went school , hair still ok la . Than thought i lucky never tio cuaght but in the end at class tio caught than went to the parade ground kena scolded . Pin up all my fringe to th back than skirt pull untill tdarm long can , so not like mee . Than went classroom , put my fringe down than kena soclded again to pin all my feelers up back , haa . Than pin jiu pin lo , like i care like that . LOL , class was fun leys except the english class so bored die . Haa than bell ring , i bus back hme . I miss die baby's !

Online chatting with xiaostar , lebrone , xahboy (?) , ashely and alot stranger luh ! Haa , bored die , sian . Chatting with star about tapoh , haa dont too sad luh he will sms eui when he top up de alright ^^ Tml schling again , sianneh . Ok luh go update friendster le & links . Bye



Knn pcb , just now at my block downstair hav one fucking dog ! Black dog luh , anyhow come only , like i know him like this . -'- Come ask me whether can be his fake stead cause his brotehr dey all later coming the football court , go suck dick la . Haa , than he wait me at my block downstair than talk alot of craps make me dulan leys . Kena scolded by me awhile he zhao lo , so no use la . Haa , sot plug

Today went school , hair still ok la . Than thought i lucky never tio cuaght but in the end at class tio caught than went to the parade ground kena scolded . Pin up all my fringe to th back than skirt pull untill tdarm long can , so not like mee . Than went classroom , put my fringe down than kena soclded again to pin all my feelers up back , haa . Than pin jiu pin lo , like i care like that . LOL , class was fun leys except the english class so bored die . Haa than bell ring , i bus back hme . I miss die baby's !

Online chatting with xiaostar , lebrone , xahboy (?) , ashely and alot stranger luh ! Haa , bored die , sian . Chatting with star about tapoh , haa dont too sad luh he will sms eui when he top up de alright ^^ Tml schling again , sianneh . Ok luh go update friendster le & links . Bye



First day of school , mood was spoilt ! Damn it

Went schl with my fucking hairstyle , darm bad hair day luh can . Than went schl , mother unfolded my bottom than i fold it up like one bunch of what can . LOL , so angry / . Than went schl i was late la , everyone was there by the time i reached . Shyt , than went to my appointed seat than sit down , beside me was marcus than bhind was ian , haa . Than went around with my hair darm messy . LOL , after schl sister xiaozhu come fetch mee , haa i lurv her ttm cans ! Alright than went home and out i go .

Baby , me miss you like so damn lots can . I went extend my lip hole untill the biggest and now it bcame swollen . I wan you sayang mee luh , haa . Bi , you will be my oneandonly sweetie and last valentine if cans ? Lurvs , 010110



First day of school , mood was spoilt ! Damn it

Went schl with my fucking hairstyle , darm bad hair day luh can . Than went schl , mother unfolded my bottom than i fold it up like one bunch of what can . LOL , so angry / . Than went schl i was late la , everyone was there by the time i reached . Shyt , than went to my appointed seat than sit down , beside me was marcus than bhind was ian , haa . Than went around with my hair darm messy . LOL , after schl sister xiaozhu come fetch mee , haa i lurv her ttm cans ! Alright than went home and out i go .

Baby , me miss you like so damn lots can . I went extend my lip hole untill the biggest and now it bcame swollen . I wan you sayang mee luh , haa . Bi , you will be my oneandonly sweetie and last valentine if cans ? Lurvs , 010110

• Went kembangan for the happiteen things
• Around 2 plus went bugis with joanne
• Reached hme around 4 plus than sleep till 5
• went bedok meet baby than bus to hougang

Sweet , morning wake up darm early than trained to kembangan mrt saw sebastian and kok weng they all than went to a temple . Haa , than talk play finish than trained to bugis help joanne look for jobs than bought a couple of clothes . Than around 4 plus went hme sleep untill 5 , father drive me to bedok than meet baby than bus-ed to hougang ! Haa , he so cute like domo can , lurvs ! Than went to puggol park , slack laugh . Haa around 11 plus father drive me back . Baby called , sms and sleep . Haa , tml xiaozhu sist come fetch me frm schl ley , haha ! I miss die her ttm .

Baby , mee will forever tiongxim eui one alright . Wont leave eui de , lurv die eui always ! ♥ haa , meet soon again alright . Sry today cant meet dao eui , lurvs ! Muacks

• Went kembangan for the happiteen things
• Around 2 plus went bugis with joanne
• Reached hme around 4 plus than sleep till 5
• went bedok meet baby than bus to hougang

Sweet , morning wake up darm early than trained to kembangan mrt saw sebastian and kok weng they all than went to a temple . Haa , than talk play finish than trained to bugis help joanne look for jobs than bought a couple of clothes . Than around 4 plus went hme sleep untill 5 , father drive me to bedok than meet baby than bus-ed to hougang ! Haa , he so cute like domo can , lurvs ! Than went to puggol park , slack laugh . Haa around 11 plus father drive me back . Baby called , sms and sleep . Haa , tml xiaozhu sist come fetch me frm schl ley , haha ! I miss die her ttm .

Baby , mee will forever tiongxim eui one alright . Wont leave eui de , lurv die eui always ! ♥ haa , meet soon again alright . Sry today cant meet dao eui , lurvs ! Muacks